Post written on May 12, 2017
My Entomology lecturer, for 3 of the 6 years I studied the behaviour of living things – Prof Waladde – taught me one thing I never forgot – The Right Side is Always the Right Side.
This of course, had to do with insects. That was his way of making us, his students, remember how to pin beetles (on the right side) for lab specimens. Hpwever, life would be so meaningless; studying would be meaningless if I didn’t learn to incorporate lessons from various subjects of life into “how does this relate to the wider scope of things?”
This beetle teaching resonated with a lot of aspects of my life, as I navigated through adulthood, with the only compass I had – and have learnt to trust on countless occasions – instinct. The right side, instinct, is always the right side.
It’s the feeling we have when we meet someone we are smitten with, who says or does one thing that doesn’t merge smoothly with who we are – no matter how small, or seemingly insignificant – only to learn months or years later that, that little voice we doubted is our basic foundation. It’s what has protected us from starvation and complex illnesses, because we were born knowing how to cry when we were hungry. No one taught us that – except maybe, for the nurse who spanked your bum at birth, because you weren’t in the mood to say ‘hello world!’ yet. We knew how to act bothered when we were not feeling at ease, making mommy run to the doctor, only to save us from something that could have been a potential danger if we hadn’t cried.
The Moon represents our instinct, our primal selves, before we were civilised, before we were taught how to be – at home, at school, on the streets. She answers the question: “how do I know that this is the best decision to make?”
The answer was provided beautifully by Esther Hicks a few years ago in the video of The Secret, when she said…
“You can always tell by the way you are feeling if the thing you’re thinking about will please you when you get there.“
It’s been at least 2 years since I watched the video, so please pardon me if I got some words wrong. I hope that I relayed the message clearly enough though!
I say, someone else can determine how you feel in a moment. They can affect how you feel. But, only you know how you should feel. Only you know what makes your soul joyful. Only you can determine your infit (your soul’s outfit). Only you know yourself! Even when you don’t believe it. In fact, I believe that whenever we doubt ourselves, we attract more doubt into our lives to prove that we are right.
I almost fell off a cliff at Gough Island in 2000, only because for a moment I had forgotten that I’d taken trips on a rubber duck around the island with only a life jacket as protection. However, even though I couldn’t swim, and still can’t, I signed up for the expedition knowing very well that I’d be floating on a ship over the Atlantic Ocean for 2 weeks before reaching land. That didn’t threaten me one little bit! I didn’t even get sea sick. I trusted that the same Source of the inspiration to go on the expedition would protect me! But in a moment of doubt, I forgot about the God I always trusted to carry me. I allowed doubt! He didn’t want me to go tumbling down a cliff onto ocean boulders and vanish, so he sent Richard – a teammate – to save the day. That moment was the beginning of a not-so-always-easy reminder to diminish self-doubt. I’m still learning to remember!
Fear and self doubt are ego issues! Only and evolved ego can overcome fear and doubt, and that means going back to the Source and allowing what is be!
Whenever we attract star boys, then freak out when they are being uhm, star boys, we really need to just do a recon, and figure out why we attract people we believe to be bad for us!
Do we question them because of how they make us feel?
Do we question them because of what we’ve been taught (conditioning)?
Do we attract them because we need them to remind us of who we are? The thing that makes us question our beliefs.
Do we attract them for reasons that are so innate that only we can unpack?
That’s my natal Scorpio Moon speaking, which happens to be conjunct the transiting Moon in Scorpio – loads of intense introspection. Thank goodness for the transiting Mercury being direct – he brings out the talkative Gemini Ascendant I am – which is definitely different to his retrograde motion that tends to bring out my Virgo more.
I’m sure you get me ❤♏